Fearless

Anyone there?

Hmm...I guess nobody's listening...umm...sorry,reading me but anyway.
I'm not sure if I'm happy about that, but I decided to learn to play the guitar. I'm also concidering of taking music lessons, as I realised I can't really control my voice while singing.
Someone might ask, why now?
It all started back then, when I was a child. As a little girl, I loved singing. I sang everywhere; in the bathroom, at the street, inside my house. When I was about five, during summer, there was a singing competition in an island I visited with my family. My grandma and mum encouraged me to take part, and so I did! I sang a rather stupid, childish song but I won! Looking back, it was one of the happiest days of my life. That made me love singing even more and made me happy and proud of myself. But, in a few years, everything would change...
One autumn morning at my first week in Junior high, my music teacher, an old man who wasn't really sane, asked every student to sing a couple of notes after him, in order to choose members for the school choir. When it was my turn, I sang the notes with a low voice, as I was always a really shy person. My teacher looked at me for a moment
"You have mediocre voice" he said, drily
I turned as red as a beetroot and wanted to cry, but I gained control of myself. However, from that moment I lost any faith in myself and my singing skills. I wouldn't sing anything because I believed my voice was terrible. I avoided singing even the national anthem; I though that someone might hear me and make fun of my 'terrible' voice.
This year, in France, I was alone in my room and as I was bored, I put some music on and started singing on my own. Suddenly, the door opened and a girl walked in. I almost immediately stopped, but by that moment she heard a lot of my singing. She said nothing, however, a couple of days later when we were hanging around in a room, she looked at me and said
"You have a really nice voice, you know that?"
I blushed, I had no idea what to say other than thanks...But I never forgot her words. She encouraged me to start singing again.
I was thinking, I can't be the only one who likes my voice! I usually have low self-esteem, so what's going on now?
I realised I have to discover my voice type and apparently, I'm a mezzo-soprano, like Taylor Swift and Avril Lavigne. Then, I began singing songs that this type of singers sing and I chose Taylor Swift's. Her songs are meaningful and suit me a lot (but that's just my opinion).
The biggest challenge I had to face was recording them...Webcam had the worst sound quality, so I recorded them with my camera or my mp3 player. Still, they altered my voice a lot and deteriorated it.
Recently, I was asked to be the lead singer of a band, I was more than excited. I may not be trained, but I'm concidering of learning more about music and more importantly, not let go my dreams!

I'm now fearless, I'm not afraid of anyone critics. Apparently, my music teacher back then didn't mean my voice was mediocre,but my music aptitude. That means that I'm not talented at learning a musical instrument, not that I can't sing well. I spent all these years ashamed of my voice, while it wasn't that bad in the end!

Now I learnt that from now on, I won't let anyone tell me what I can and can't do, because they simply don't know me!